A happy and crazy girl has now change into an emo girl.Why? Well it's because of something that I,myself just don't want to mention it. It's hard to explain. I told it two of my friends who i can trust about it because they were asking me "Why so emo?" "why so emo?" So i ended up telling them the whole story about me. One of my friend who is N said just tell your feelings to them maybe it will help you and them. But i don't want to tell them cause it will cause problems and maybe our friendship will suddenly be over. I just don't want that to helping. And other suggested that he gave me is to find a soul mate or lets just say a partner. Well, i didn't actually think about that cause i don't feel like having one. Well, if i really wanted a partner i bet that no one wants to voluntered to be my soul mate or my partner. And if someone really wants to be my partner, maybe i will accept. HAHA!!!! But i have to see their personality first before accepting them.HAHAHAHA But i bet no one wants it. Anyway forget it. I felt nervous for next monday cause probation it's on having their first duty!!! I felt nervous cause...... let's see....... I f-e-e-l n-e-r-v-o-u-s!!!!HAHA! Sometimes i felt like crying and telling the one that i like I hate you!!!! Y do you have to use me like that!!! I'm not a slave you know !!!! I'm your friend!!!!!!

HAHAHA!!! crazy right!!



Seriously, who can i tust now. HAving a fake personality right in front of them. Fake smile. Fake look. Everything is fake to me. It's not a joke at all. It's the truth.Sometimes my life is getting worser and worser. I don't wish to talk to people now. I'm just waiting for the right person who can change me back into the crazy old girl again. But who will be the one?!