A happy and crazy girl has now change into an emo girl.Why? Well it's because of something that I,myself just don't want to mention it. It's hard to explain. I told it two of my friends who i can trust about it because they were asking me "Why so emo?" "why so emo?" So i ended up telling them the whole story about me. One of my friend who is N said just tell your feelings to them maybe it will help you and them. But i don't want to tell them cause it will cause problems and maybe our friendship will suddenly be over. I just don't want that to helping. And other suggested that he gave me is to find a soul mate or lets just say a partner. Well, i didn't actually think about that cause i don't feel like having one. Well, if i really wanted a partner i bet that no one wants to voluntered to be my soul mate or my partner. And if someone really wants to be my partner, maybe i will accept. HAHA!!!! But i have to see their personality first before accepting them.HAHAHAHA But i bet no one wants it. Anyway forget it. I felt nervous for next monday cause probation it's on having their first duty!!! I felt nervous cause...... let's see....... I f-e-e-l n-e-r-v-o-u-s!!!!HAHA! Sometimes i felt like crying and telling the one that i like I hate you!!!! Y do you have to use me like that!!! I'm not a slave you know !!!! I'm your friend!!!!!!

HAHAHA!!! crazy right!!



Seriously, who can i tust now. HAving a fake personality right in front of them. Fake smile. Fake look. Everything is fake to me. It's not a joke at all. It's the truth.Sometimes my life is getting worser and worser. I don't wish to talk to people now. I'm just waiting for the right person who can change me back into the crazy old girl again. But who will be the one?!

I was emo for this few days because i felt left out...... well probably.......ok fine i'll make it short..So on friday,when shopping with my mother and my aunt. BOred........ cause my mother when there to buy 'Lego' for my sis..... then the next day when and it 'dim sum' with my parents and my aunt........ Sis kept on begging my dad to buy 'Lego' again so ended up goin to Mid valley again......... Lazy to go with my parents to toy're us..............so went alone tomph to read books.......... Never bought a story book for myself cause this year PMR.......NOT ALLOW TO BUY A SINGLE STORYBOOK!!!!! Later when and drink starbucks......!!!!!

Delicious coffee!!!!! I'm loving it!!!! HAHAHA

Nothing to do so post pictures

There she is!!!! say CheeSe!!!

LOOK AT HER SO KAWAII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOOK AT THIS VIEW. TOOK IT AT GOLDEN HORSE!

I know i know !!!! I'm always panic or nervous. But this time i seriously need to be panic. PMR exam is coming closer and closer and there is only 4or maybe 5 more months LEFT>>!!!!!!HAHAHA!!! I'm actually putting myself into trouble. -.-. I feeling gloomy and irritated this few days. Don't know why?! MAybe i better stop being the crazy Rachel but BE the angry and emo Rachel. Don't you think is much better. I mean no one can bully me easily (especially the boys)!!! So not gentlemen at all........



Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out,
But to see who cares enough to break them down.

What do you feel when your friends just suddenly left you away or maybe 'not going to friend with you' ? What's your feeling and your reactions? True! You will feel depressed and kept on thinking why did they treat me like that? It isn't fair!!!! And you will be so emo that you don't wish to talk to anyone or maybe you want to talk to someone which is close to you. Well, seriously this kinda feeling I had experienced it before.

It is so painful that you can't imagine it yourself. You have been friend with them for so many years and suddenly you became not really closed to them.Well, if one of you have problems like this just don't feel useless or depressed. Just follow this rules :

1. Always smile whether you are happy or unhappy.

2. If you want to tell it to your friends whether is a girl or a boy just free to tell. ( but tell to the person who you can TRUST!) DUH!!!!

3. Simply just write your feelings in your personal diary or something like that.

Hahaha!!!! This 3 rules seriously works all the time. HAHAHA!! or maybe not..........................



Wow! I didn't know my name was there!!!! Perasan betul lah saya!!Haha and also Sarah's name

Oh no!! Exam for b.m is tomorrow and I'm so stress right now. I didn't know what to write for essay! Sure this time i'm gonna get a 'B' for b.m!!!! Now busy wasting my time for finding points for kesenian tradisional....... HAiz!

I need a hug right now and i don't why? Hehe feeling to bored that's why i want to hug and talk to someone hehehe.......Started to feel crazy already.

It's been a long time since i blog. Seriously, i'm starting to feel lazy to blog becasue there is nothing special to blog about especially my school. Come to think of it, i think i know what to blog about....... now. Well, it's about a friend of mine who is acting so...... well.....it's kinda hard and harsh to say. He's acting really stupid and annoying compared to last year. After he met this guy he started to act like him. And it's pretty annoying and a few of my friends agree. He's like kept on asking where is my sis and he already knows that form 1 finishes school later than the form 3 but he kept on asking and asking and asking!!!!!!

So..... One day, about half of my friends didn't come for tuition on saturday because they went to UBS camp leaving me behind. HAHAHA(joking). So that day, i sad with Mich and later L came sitting next to me.And that friend of mine kept on asking me "Are you happy?" EVERY MINUTE!!!!!! And it's annoying. Later when we were having history class, he shouted my mother mien yuen (I think the spelling was like that ) and everyone (which is my schoolmates) burst out laughing especially N and L (both of them were the loudest of all!!!! I was smiling all the way pretending that i didn't hear the joke.

Guess wat? I scolded him in the school that he is not suppose to say like that about my mom. IT'S RUDE!!!!!!! He kept on kneeling down and apologise. So i forgive him but he still kept on kneeling and kneeling at me like i'm some kind of ....... i seriously don't wat to say about him.
I think it was this wednesday, i told him changed his attitude. Be like the person that i met last year. Quiet..... AND NOT ANNONYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But he kept on being annoying. This type of guy seriously cannot be help.